December Come
I’m listening to : The Call by Regina Spektor
A part of me would still rather live in denial about the fact that we are a day away from December. December, so soon? I should be happy, and really, I am, about Christmas and all. But the arrival of December also means another less assuring thing : That I haven’t been progressing much musically. But let’s not go there.
December should be about the festive season, the joy, the love. I should be looking forward to putting up the Christmas tree, to presents, to turning eighteen, to ushering in the year of 2010. Yet here I sit, dwelling on things and consequences I brought on myself. Truth is, all that shouldn’t matter now. What should is this – Will there be changes come 2010?
We all know that the minute you note something down on your resolution list serves as an assurance that it will not happen, because you won’t make it happen. Yet every year, I write down a bunch of things that I longed to make happen, knowing that I never get to making them happen. So where does that leave me?
Who cares. I’m going to go ahead and do a review of my resolutions for 2009 that I wrote back in December ’08 anyway.
1. Make new friends, as in real friends, but still keep a safe distance.
Check.
2. Embrace my newfound freedom, but draw a clear line separating right from wrong.
Half-check.
3. Sit for my bloody Undang test and get that drivers’ license before March.
I got it mid-March, but fair enough, check.
4. Practice and buck up on my sense of direction so I won’t get lost so much.
Fair enough, check.
5. Start exercising. I mean it this time.
Ha Ha.
6. Sleep and arise early.
Check. Until final submission week.
7. Learn to stand up for myself when the situation gets sticky.
Ha. Ha. Ha.
8. Save more money 
It’ll come in handy during the yearend.
HA. HA.
9. To not fall in love with mortals(I’d rather wait for a werewolf/vampire) or get in a serious relationship.
The irony’s killing me. What’s considered a serious relationship anyway? Not checked.
10. To always keep in mind that with fun and freedom comes responsibility.
CHECK.
11. Be more responsible and independent. And not count on anyone for help.
Half-check.
12. Learn to wash my own clothes and shoes.
NOT CHECKED. I’m ashamed.
13. For once learn to pay attention in class.
Hmm, half-check. Fair enough.
14. Learn to live and let live, hopefully.
HEH.
15. To stop settling for mediocrity and be the best in everything I do.
NOT CHECKED.
16. To stop putting up with backstabbers/ditchers.
Not checked.
Pathetic.
Are you ready for my Resolutions 2010?
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It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Till it was a battle cry
I’ll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye
Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Till they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye
- Regina Spektor
For The Ones We’ve Lost
Before I go on, I’d just like to add that I really do have all the respect in the world for the legend, the king of pop, Michael Jackson. His death shook the world as all around the world things came to a halt. Work stopped and a tribute came into plan in less than a day. Would people do the same for me when I die? I doubt. Nobody will ever be what MJ was.
My favourites from MJ were Earth Song, Man In The Mirror, Black Or White, Heal The World, and of course, Ben. I especially loved Earth Song. Dad raves about MJ even ’till today. I have nothing more to say about MJ. The rest said it well enough.
Rest In Peace, Michael Jackson. You will be dearly missed. Nobody can ever take your place.
My parents and siblings were downstairs watching Channel [V]‘s tribute to MJ. They played his music videos and all that. When it ended, dad went, “Okay change the channel don’t watch all this stupid one. After watching MJ all this look like sh*t.” – Referring to modern day pop music.
I didn’t hear it for myself, but when Steffi related it later on to me I was somewhat offended. You see, that’s the problem with adults. We young people enjoy, savour and appreciate modern day music as much as we do old records. They just cannot do the same. It’s always their music is brilliant, our music is crap.
Sometimes I wonder if the adults forget that the sh*t they criticise, is what I’m going to college for. Though it’s not the dreams of sexy videos and all that, though I’m looking more into slow pop, things with more soul, it still angers me every time.
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Anyway, I got tagged by an old friend. Like a really, really old friend. Okay maybe not that old I’m only seventeen how old can it get. I initially didn’t want to do it but me and Amanda, we go way back. And look people, I never said I hated Chinese-educated people who aren’t good with language and all that. What I’ve always hated and will always hate are people who are absolutely horrible with language but behave as if they’re Pulitzer prize winners.
So yep. Cheers to my old best friend.
What have you been doing recently?
Been packing. Insect spray, dishwashing liquid, all that.
Do you ever turn your handphone off?
No.
What happened at 10a.m. today?
Nothing. Watched E!.
When did you last cry?
Whoa. Long time.
Believe in fate/destiny?
Yep.
What do you want in life now?
Success. Which I understand comes with hardwork.
Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or do you just put up your hood?
Both are fine with me. Umbrellas are cute in their own way, no?
What’s your favourite thing to do on the bed?
Read Archie’s.
What bottoms are you wearing now?
Um…shorts?
What are the nicest things in your inbox?
No idea.
Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
Nah. Not anymore anyway.
Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Never.
What was the last movie you caught?
Monsters vs Aliens & Night At The Museum 2.
What are you proud of?
Um. Nothing?
What does the oldest text message in your inbox says and who’s it from?
Messages degrading me, saying all kinds of crap about me with profanities and all that. I don’t have to tell you who they’re from, do I? I only keep a few. I read when I’m feeling low and it gives me the kick to want to be the best.
What was the last song you sang out loud?
Edwin McCain – I’ll Be. Steffi’s grooving to Metro Station(yeah, Shake It) now. You should be here to witness it.
Do you have any nicknames?
Yeah. Sam. Sam. And uh, Sam.
What does the newest text message says and who’s it from?
Lazy to check. Phone’s downstairs. Oh wait no it’s here. “Now only I going la. Next week la next week.” – Ian, about pasar malam on Wednesday. See how sad life is? The only time the phone rings is when Ian replies and tells me he’s going to the pasar malam without me! Wth nolah kidding.
What time did you go to sleep last night?
Um. Twelve plus?
Are you currently happy?
Yeppy. Wish we weren’t this broke though 
Who gives you the best advice?
Steffi. Actually I call her Ping. But P.S. ONLY I, ME, SAMANTHA can call her Ping. You people stick to calling her Steffi!!
Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Neh we don’t buy whipcream.
You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
I get really cross, but nah I don’t hate me mom.
What type of boy do you like?
Taylor Lautner/Hayden Christensen kind of boy. As much as I love Shia, he smokes and behaves like any other spoilt celeb. Sigh.
Pass this tag on to ten people (Ignore if you’ve done it before)
1. Ian
2. Jo
3. Mei Yen(Un-privatise your blog!)
4. Aun (I’m giving you reason to bleeding update)
5. Lenylaaaah
6. Nora
7. U-Mae
8. Elaine
9. Gin Tee
10. Jasmine
1. Would you date #5? (Leny)
AM would kill me.
2. #2 got into a car crash. How would you react? (Jo)
I have no idea. I’d be shocked I guess.
3. You see #9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do? (Gin Tee)
If the boyfriend you’re speaking of here refers to Shia, um, well, Gin Tee will have to die. But she knows better than to mess with my boyfriend lah hoh?
4. You come home and your room has be ransacked by #4. (Aun)
Make him strip and walk the neighbourhood. You think?!
5. #1 is acting weird. (Ian)
Okay, what’s new? He’s a weirdo all the time.
6. #3 and #8 decide to give #10 a haircut. (Mei Yen, Elaine, Jasmine)
#10 would NEVER let anyone touch her hair.
7. #7 just got tickets and asks you to go to a concert. (Mae)
Let’s go! She’s always full of fun.
8. #10 takes you to a bar. (Jasmine)
I’d be tempted… Will try to resist a champagne.
9. #4 has to move to the other side of the world. (Aun)
What?! Earlier than me?! I’ll be there to join you soon!
10. You and #8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason. (Elaine)
It probably has something to do with underaged drinking /shoulders Elaine
11. #5 asks you out for dinner. (Leny)
Jom! I have a week more lady, let’s breakfast soon!
12. #9 and you are sitting in a bus. (Gin Tee)
Chitchatchitchat.
13. #6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can’t sleep. (Nora)
Unlikely.
14. You’re walking with someone and #6 runs up and tackles you to the ground. (Nora)
Uh. Unlikely.
15. #1 is crying one day and you ask why. It seems that their boy/girlfriend………..blah use your imagination. (Ian)
Gave him a smack in the head.
16. #2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen suddenly blows up into flames. (Jo)
Why do bad things happen to #2 all the time?!
17. #4 comes to your door holding a koala. (Aun)
Uh. What’s up?
18. #4 just got you an Xbox. (Aun)
Go get me a PS3 with Gran Turismo 4. Nolah kidding. You can have the box, okay?
19. #9 challenges you at a children’s card game. (Gin Tee)
Lai la!
20. #1 thinks he/she’s overweight. (Ian)
Stop whining and go exercise. But you’re not overweight lah okay, just an example.
21.#7 looks lonely. (Mae)
SO UNLIKELY.
22. #2 asks you rudely to leave his/her home. (Jo)
Punch her in the face. /punches thin air
23. #3 and #5 throws you a surprise party. (Mei Yen, Leny)
Weeee!
24. #6 decides to dye his/her hair black. What do you say to that? (Nora)
We all have black hair. What more you want to dye?!
25. #2 tells you he/she’s going out for awhile, then later you hear there was a shooting where he/she went. (Jo)
WHY DO BAD THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO #2?
26. You catch #9 by him/herself, crying… (Gin Tee)
/sayang. Buy you a poster of Chuck Bass want?
27. #1, #3, #5 and #6 all tackle you at once! (Ian, Mei Yen, Leny, Nora)
-________-”
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Oh, and to the Megan Fox of the era before ours, Farrah Fawcett, you will always be the original dream girl.
