Golden Heart

I’m listening to : He Heals Me by India Arie

Hi all! It’s been… What on earth, a whole 2 months!?

It’s about 1:30a.m., listening to this piece that gently sings tranquility reminds me so much about my final days living in the hole called Heritage, and the first time I realized and came to accept that I had finally fallen in love. Not in a head-over-heels fashion, but instead I wanted to give this guy a future, a vision that he had to work hard for because no one else deserves it better than he does.

We’ve come a distance so great I occasionally find it hard to believe that the one I go to bed with and wake up next to today, was once living without an ambition, a dream, a vision and without a heart. Through helping him find his light and his aspirations, I found and learnt even more about myself. I am so happy, just sincerely, irrevocably happy to be able to say that at this day he is most of the time equally strong – if not stronger – than I am. He picks me up and finds even more strength, determination and wisdom within himself every time — Just as I picked him up and shared the weight of his pain on my own shoulders one night, eighteen months ago. I’ve learnt a great deal about myself through this guy, including how to fry an egg(Yes, it’s true! I just hadn’t had time to write about it here.)

He’s so beautiful.

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I told him my biggest secret, and he told me four
He smiled  at me and said, “That makes me love you more”
And then he made me laugh, and I knew it was a sign
That he was a man that I wanted in my life
And with every passing day, I feel more and more of that way

I can play him songs all through the night
And he would listen to every line
And even when I’m wrong, he is still kind
He chooses his words wisely when he tells me I’m not right
And yes he’s a beautiful man, but he’s also a beautiful friend

The moment that we met, he made me smile
He had so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea how long he’ll be here
A season of a lifetime, forever or a year

But for the first time in my life I’m not worried about the future
‘Cause we have such a wonderful time when we’re together
However things turn out it’s alright
‘Cause he’s already changed my life 

He heals me, he knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me, he knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me

- India Arie